We Sit And Watch In Wonder, This Show We All Call Life

welcome to existance,
they said to me while i was naked.
only later, did i realize that it meant taking the time to live
more than just the will to survive.


i exist because it is believed to be so.
we come to be from the being of everyone else. enlightenment is only a single second of letting go. of holding on as tight as we can.
it's exploding the pockets in your lungs, screaming and laughing and crying.
i write these words because they are inside my head, but i have only come here to tell you that i want to be seen through a lens at all times.
i want to the portrait of someone's perfect existence.

i have this dream... and in it, we're all staring into the sun. none of us are blind. we do not fear. we do not follow or lead. but we exist, our minds intertwined like hands.
and in this beautiful place, in my dream -our hands are snapshots of the worst moments of our lives. they are polaroid pictures of today. tomorrow. then. now. never. the future.
and we hold them together. mushed against one another, we have all come to understand.

i am so sick of this
a
ban
done
mint.
and its god damn minty freshness.
fuck that, i'll brush my teeth with shit and smile wide.

i have this idea in my head of how it all looks.
and i see it everyday walking past strangers and friends.
i see it in my lover's eyes, blue and wide.
i see it when i sleep. i see it, and know that it is. it has become this living, breathing being. this tangible object made up of what we could have. what is right in front of us.

i want to have a picture for everything.
i want my walls to be painted in extravagant chaos. reds and blues and oranges and pinks all thrown onto white walls. i want to decorate my walls with the most brutal pictures of smiles and laughter and truth.
i want to paint signs letting people know that love is free.
that friendship doesn't have a price.
that everything we get, we should give.
i want to expose the world in film, and show it to be the most miraculous place we have ever imagined.
i want it to be so.
and it is.

my world is vast.
it has seas filled with monsters and mermaids.
it has color and metal.
it wears its smirk and grin well.
it wears old chucks and ripped up jeans.

it's the full moon, i know.
but today is a good day for an epiphany.
today is a splendid day to stretch my legs.